TESTIMONY TEA TIME

I feel led to write about when God got me a car after I had quit going to the strip club to work and stopped all outside association with johns. It is important to mention, I had heard what I thought was God once while hotel hopping as I was still trying to sell nudes to pay for hotel rooms because I could not see any other way to keep myself housed so technically that was my first experience with homelessness, I had fled from where I was I realize now God had allowed me to become overwhelmed and paranoid because I was not seeking him at all, at this point I had no education about Jesus or God or the Holy Spirit and was for certain on demon time. I also was still drinking randomly weather with someone or not and smoking ALOT OF WEED. and I mean I was going through an ounce in a week/five days easily. So to speed the story up to get to this specific miracle God had me stumble into I had taken my car at the time a new Honda accord 600 a month car note it was behind I knew it was going to be taken at this point I had been hotel hopping for almost six months without paying anything on the vehicle, and became paranoid about them finding it also, so one night in my car crying I heard a voice say baby girl its all ok put your feet up and lay back and I didnt even question who or what I was hearing at this point I was so stressed bc I was trying desperately NOT to have to go back to my parents house for many reasons and the number one being it was not a safe healthy environment, mostly emotionally and spiritually and I had become very spiritually attuned.

looking back now I believe it was a familiar spirit or something NOT of God it was shorty after that I was convinced I was a medium and was doing tarot and mediumship online, so I basically traded the sin of sex work for the sin of divination, CRAZY looking back now but GOD knew I was headed in his direction! so while at my parents house receiving only judgement, family members gossiping about me, no one supporting my attempts at online entrepreneurship I began to talk about God online while doing my mediumship convinced God gave me the talent, and my car finally got repossessed. I was also being told God is not real and I shouldn’t be so eager to share my mental illness online with people. My dad was always VERY good at saying harsh things that were true that could convince you it was the right thing to do or believe even when your soul knew it wasn’t.

fast forward the devil was working through all my family members to make things harder in everyway possible.. theres mulitple cars in our drive way but my step mom refused to let me drive any of them, but my brother could to take me to work at the kids crisis center as I was forced to get a normal job to stay there. My step mom at the time was being a jealous insecure bully (which she had been like this with me since i was 12) but it seemed worse now that I was a grown woman as if competition i wasn’t even in was greater now. but to wrap it up God knew I was going to leave in a fit or panic because my inner child kept being triggered by my step mother, I had become pregnant looking for love in all the wrong places, but this stopped me sending nudes all together because when I am in a relationship I am very loyal. Wasn’t with him long before realizing I had been love bombed classic narcissist stuff.

so after realizing that relationship was turning into domestic violence, and my step mom and brothers and dad were not helping with creating a safe environment I do remember talking to God and saying I need somewhere else to say desperately needing a way out. I felt under attack literally, which looking back was a little dramatic physically but spiritually IT WAS RIGHT ON POINT, God was coming for me and the devil was actively trying to stop that. The next day after praying for a way out I ran into a woman named Shawn while out at walmart, I had stayed in her house when I was 16 the first time I had to leave my home because of my step moms actions/ energy towards me. I told her I thought God sent her to me again and basically that is a lesson that not every open door is from God, God worked in the situation anyways! GLORY TO GOD.

She came and picked me up with her daughter who I had gone to high school with and immediately I knew I couldn’t stay there, God knew it was a pitstop, that household environment was worse than mine to say the least, and shawns son who I hadn’t seen in years was now on the sex offenders list for violating a 12 year old he’s in his 30s so I actually got more panicked, I even tried to go back to my parents but God closed that door through my father saying, “no thanks id rather stay married” than have me live there because it was that big of a problem to my stepmother. Im thankful God showed me everyones true colors and removed me from all of them its been almost three years now since I have seen any of my family, and my little sister died a month ago of an asthma attack. Ive tried to reach out to my brothers because I had a dream of them but no ones replying. Anyways while at shawns house they had an extra car they let me use to get to work and I used it until I was connected through them to a kid I went to 8th grade with named zach who flipped cars, he didn’t care I had a repo and let me make payments. God knew I had to leave and couldn’t take their car with me. I will just leave it here when I say IM SO GRATEFUL GOD HELPED ME THROUGH THAT CHAOTIC TIME even though I was less than lukewarm for him, looking back if God helped me then I can only imagine the miracles he is going to bring upon me and maverick now. Thanks for reading!